Fuck! I'm Fat Again!!

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Thursday, just gone, the red Cross Blood Mobile was outside my work.  I hadn't donated in a while and thought it would be a good idea.

So when it was time for my appointment I filled in my paperwork and waited for a chair to become available.

My time came.

I entered the van and the nurse said, hop on the scales and someone will be with you in a minute.

FUCK!!!

SCALES!!!

I had totally forgotten that you had to be weighed before donating.

Ok so I hope by now you have the idea that I REALLY didn't like the number that I saw!!

Please don't think that I have been kidding myself!  I've known the creep has been upon me the last few months, I've noticed my clothes getting tighter and my wardrobe options getting smaller, I've been tired and struggling to get out bed in the morning.  I've been a bit depressed, down on myself and comparing myself to the unattainable.

Anyway, I know the number (maybe I'll tell you one day) and have made the decision that it won't get any higher.

So even though it was Friday (and most diets start on a Monday - I'm not dieting - I'm getting off that roller coaster) I have started refocusing. I packed my walking shoes and did a walk after work (I got off the bus early and walked at lunch too), I was as selective as I could be with my food - I wasn't as good as I could have been.  Today I've made a fruit platter for grazing and picking!

Everything little thing helps!

PS - I haven't had a drink all week!!

Hello Success, Come On In.....

Hello Success, come on in, stay a while - actually stay as long as you like!

Yes readers I had a win this week!! I lost 1.9 kilos this week taking my total to 13.3 kilos gone forever!!

What did I do right??

I planned my meals in advance.
I consumed no alcohol (antibiotics help with that!)
I didn't exercise but I did as much incidental exercise as I possibly could
I ate lots of fruit
I ate Icy Poles (1 pt)
I drank LOTS of water
I had two squares of chocolate and gave away the rest
I ordered a half serve of chips at the fish and chip shop rather than the stated minimum!!

No need to say it but I'm going to - I FEEL FANTASTIC!

Double figures here I come!!

Weigh In Update!!

Well first week back on the plan was a f*ck up and I gained .7, making my weight loss result for the last fortnight a gain of a fabulous 1 kilo! I know you can tell how pleased I am.

Wanna know what happened? Pure and simple - I let my emotions take over! I sat on my ass this week and watched the horrific events in Brisbane unfold and ate and drank like a boy!! Yep - beer, biscuits, bread and chips. You name it - if it was a comfort food I ate it!!

So this week am laying off the booze, I'm gonna volunteer - ie get my body moving and I'm going to track everything!!

My thought for this week - I am not limited by who I am, but who I think I am not!! Pretty powerful hey?

I am woman hear me roar!!

I'm Still Here!!!!

Hi all, yes I've been MIA for a couple of weeks, but its ok I'm still here and best of all I'm still losing!!

I haven't tracked, I've pigged out, I've drank heaps of beer, wine and cocktails, I've only deliberately exercised twice and I skipped weigh in last week.

Would you believe that I lost .5kg at weigh in today? I don't quite believe it myself!

Hope I can keep it up!! Somehow I don't think the above eating and exercise plan will let me :-)

Off to get myself back on track now!

The Longest Journey in WW History

Sometimes, especially on days like today, I feel like my weight loss journey must be the longest in weight watchers history! It has taken me since February 2010 to lose 12.1 kilos! i can't help but think that I should be down at least 20 kilos more than this.

Yeah you guessed it - I gained again! A kilo this time.

I know that I didn't exercise enough - that was weather driven, but I need to get over that and find some alternatives!  I know that I drank too much alcohol and ate too much crap, actually I ate too much in general.

Sometimes I think that I don't take this commitment to myself seriously enough, that I get too caught up in a moment or evening and stop thinking about what is going into my mouth.

Don't get me wrong I'm not down on myself, I'm still pretty proud of what I have achieved thus far and I do feel good.

I need to refocus again - set some new goals - health and otherwise.  I need some encouragement and most of all I just need to get back to basics.  Write my menu plan in advance each week, keep up the running and kick this 15 kilo goal in the butt!!

But most of all I have to keep believing that I am bloody well worth it!!

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I Want To Run!

I want to Run!

I can feel that my fitness has improved and simply walking, while I do feel good I don't get that "buzz" anymore. My body has become used to it.

I want to Run!

But I keep coming up with excuses.

My sneakers are old and badly need replacing but I have promised myself new sneakers as my reward for losing 15 kigs (when I get there). At the moment that milestone is alluding me!

I actually don't think  it would be safe to run in my sneakers in their current state - at least not on the foot path anyway, they would be ok on a treadmill but I don't have one nor do I have a gym membership (anymore).

I stayed the same at weigh in this week - so I have 2.4 kgs to be rid of before 15 are gone forever.

I think I'll keep walking for now, keep eating well and see what the scales say later in the week!

I want to RUUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNN!!!!!

A Little Setback!

I gained .7 at last weeks weigh in and here's why:

1. Too much alcohol the night before - after 2 weeks of abstaining I let loose (a bit) but far out it was fun!
2. Not enough water
3. Not enough exercising - though I did get in 4 days worth
4. Lack of portion control
5. An balancing out of the big loss I had the week before

No drama, I'm not stressed about it. I feel good and like myself!

I'm just going to keep on trucking!!

Weigh In Update

Well I gained .1 today.

I have to say I'm a teeny bit disppointed but not at all surprised. I knew that it was going to be tough to get a loss this week as there was probably some residual gain from my holiday eating.

For the most part I did work hard to stay on track but had an over indulge last night at a new Greek restaurant we have discovered and it wasn't so much the food but the alcohol that I had with it.

For those Brisbanites or people visiting and looking for a cheap, healthy option check out Little Greek Taverna at West End. My favorite was the Greek salad, but it is all excellent!!

I really want to get back on my losing streak so this week I am going to concentrate on:

1. Sticking to points and I'm actually going to aim points under my allowance!
2. Walk every morning - any evening exercise is a bonus
3. Restarting my Think Slim transformational keys

I hope everyone else has a successful week and I look forward to reporting a loss next week!

PPS - the photo is from our NZ trip - I just really like it x

I am not perfect!

After my inspirational posts of a couple of weeks ago...I have a confession to make!

I'm not perfect!

So much so that over the last fortnight I gained 1.2 kilos...although my weigher actually recorded it as 1.4 - I double checked and she just added up wrong ;-(  I don't like mistakes!!

Anyway, you will be glad to know that I haven't beaten myself up about it.  I know where I've gone wrong - booze (I've just discovered the joy of port and chocolate), not tracking, eating a little bit too much of the wrong things AND I've forgotten to do my Think Slim mantras

But I've had fun and I'm getting fitter!!

I'll say it again, for me getting the head part right is the biggest battle! And the fact that I am fairly chilled about this gain is a sign that I'm starting to win that battle!

Workwise things are on a bit of a roller-coaster, my boss resigned yesterday and isn't coming back. My other boss is leaving in December and I have a feeling the rest don't know what to do with me...its complicated to explain.  I'm trying to not spend too much energy gossiping (though I do love it) and put it into my job hunt.  I'm putting vibes out there for a redundancy, for me that's the ideal scenario - a payout and I get to leave, I'd just do some temp work until I score that dream job in PR/Communications!  Fingers crossed!

Hope all my blog friends are happy and healthy! I'll catch up on your blogs as soon as I get this uni work under control.

Love,
Andrea

On a Roll...but not a Chiko Roll!!!

By gosh, I think I'm getting it!

I'm finally starting to get this weight loss lark!

This week I am down another 1.6 kilos. Taking me to a total of 12.7 that has gone so far!!

I received my 10% award today too. And I just realised that I'm 25% to goal!!

But the best rewards are:

1. I am really starting to like myself
2. I am feeling more confident
3. My skin is glowing
4. I am sleeping better
5. I am getting more done
6. I am happier
7. My thinking is more positive
8. I can sit cross legged on the floor
9. My libido is coming back
10. Realising that I AM worth it!

Thank you again my online cheer squad!!

Gutted

The scales said I gained 1.4 kgs this week!

Needless to say I.AM.GUTTED!

I tracked and I walked over 25 kms this week!

BAD WEEK!

All day today I was on the edge of tipping over and eating everything and anything that I could lay my hands on. But I didn't!

It's a new week! It's going to be a GREAT week!!

.8 is Great!!!

Weigh in last night and was really chuffed with a loss of .8!  Even more chuffed because for the last couple of weeks I have been weighing in on Saturdays, so technically it was only 5 days in between weigh-ins! Could I have lost another 200g in 2 days and make it a nice round kilo - who cares!

I made a couple of changes this week, taking raw vegies and boiled eggs to work for snacking on - I definitely feel fuller and the "need" for processed foods in lessening!

We are going to NZ in 7-8 weeks for my Grandma's 90th! I'm a bit excited about seeing all my relatives again, its going to be a bit of a reunion and a heap of us from Oz are going. Best of all its given me an event to use as motivation - My goal is to be under 100 kilos by then! So stay tuned for the next exciting chapter as my fat suit shrinks!!

PS - Do you have any good breakfast ideas? They need to be easy and transportable - I tend to stick to vegemite on toast and think I need to add some nutrients in to start the day

Thank You Weight Watchers & My Bloggie Support Group!

Thank you Thank you Thank you!!

I've reached one of my milestone goals today!

My weight is now ten kilos less than it was six months ago and I couldn't have done it without WW or the fantastically amazing support that I get here!

A big shout out goes to the following bloggie friends:

Diminishing Lucy - who is a true goddess, she always has a kind word and virtual hug!
Diminishing Deb - who is just an inspiration with how she has turned her life around and is so full of love for everyone!
Robbie - I can't put into words what Robbie does for me and on the days she doesn't blog I just don't feel right!
Jess - whose dedication and success is spurring me along!
Ali - who is just so cool with her honesty and bravery (especially posting pics of herself in swimmers)
Lou - because she is one of my real life best friends - not that blogging isn't real - but it was the best way to describe it

Of course there are many other bloggers that I read and love, but to list you all here wouldn't make for very exciting reading!

Even though it has taken me 6 months to lose 10 kilos, I don't care - it could be far far worse I could be 10 (or 20) kilos heavier and...well....you all know what that means.

I don't think I could have done it without you guys patting me on the back, providing reality checks and encouraging me when I needed it!

So to all my followers and to those I follow - THANK YOU for taking the time to share your words, your time and know that you make a huge difference in the life of at least one!!

PS - Will post some update shots soon ;-)

PPS - ideas for a reward greatly accepted - nothing I think of excites me!!

Check out my Ticker and Tips!

Hi Guys, I had a happy result this week with a 300 gram loss...only 100g shy of 400 I needed to get to my 10 kilos. But it has made me even more determined to keep an eye on what goes in my mouth and what exercise I do during this coming week!

A couple of tips I've used this week (although I must say I haven't kept 100% on track with a few vino's slipping in!) have been:

• Telling myself I know what the birthday cake in the office tastes like so I don't have to eat any
• Having a glass of wine and then filling the glass with water, strangely it feels like I'm still drinking wine
• Drinking Hot Chocolate with skim milk instead of dessert

Anyway better run, hooked on Trial and Retribution at the moment! Will post some piccies over the weekend!

Pride (In The Name of Love)

Weigh in update, will be short and sweet today as I'm so tired I can barely keep my eyes open!

Well my hard work and focus paid off and I have got past this bump in the road.

The weight loss gods smiled and rewarded me by removing a HUGE 3 kilos!! Taking me to a total of 9.6 kilos lost. I'm looking the 10 kilo mark in the face and getting excited about my next reward which either be a facial or going to a make-up counter and having a consultant re-fresh my make-up! I can use a new look!

I'm feeling extremely proud of myself and can't help but get excited about seeing double digits soon!!

Baby did a bad bad thing!

Confession Time - I didn't track, I didn't exercise and I put on the kilo that it took me four weeks to lose ;-(

Here are the reasons - my back is screwed, the early part of the week saw me in excrutiating pain because I have a twisted pelvis and twisted vertebrae (which are being treated), I felt completely off kilter and didn't do any planning. Also my future mother in law was staying and she had to test out the kitchen by cooking us lovely comfort food!

Anyway I'm back on track and mostly pain free, so have my menu and exercise plan sorted already.

Exercise plan is as follows:

Today - Pilates (I need some core strength)
Sunday - Walk or cycle
Monday - Body Balance (more core strength and stretching)
Tuesday - Remedial Massage
Wednesday - Walk 6.5 kms
Thursday - Walk 6.5 kms
Friday - Body Balance

I'm confident that all the exercise and a clear eating plan will see me lose it quickly! And if I do I think I need a little reward! Maybe an Outrageous Fortune DVD or new motivational book!

I'm So Tired!

My brother visited on Friday - he needed to cut loose after working hard for the last 2 months in remote PNG. So we hit the town! We drank, we ate, we danced! We had FUN!!

I had a full day yesterday of errands and more vistors and I need more sleep!

I'm going back to bed and I'm not going to feel guilty - because while I'm asleep I'm not eating!!

PS - weigh-in on Thursday - another half a kilo gone forever! People are starting to notice! 

Weigh In Update

Another 100g down! I love it and I'm taking it, I'm shaking it all around and giving it a hug and abig sloppy kiss!

I know some people would be depressed and disppointed at this amount!

I'm not! I'm stoked!!! I know what I did and I know what to improve such a result!

Today I don't care - its one little tippie toe closer to goal!

The whole shack shimmied!!

It has no relation to my post, by Love Shack by the B52's is on the radio and I love that line it!

Lots of random thoughts today...I don't know where to start.

Weigh-in tonight - not sure how I'll go. I'm definitely toning, but I haven't stuck to points once this week but have walked 6.5kms twice this week and even manged to sneak a couple of short running bursts in there. I'm officially addicted to it now (even went without my buddy last night)- I've come a long way from the lack of motivation I had a few weeks ago.

Finding it hard to not have a vino or too when I get home from work....its nice hanging out in our new space chatting and cooking and making it ours.

Still working on the mental side of things. I've noticed that I don't compare myself to models or actresses that much, but I do compare myself to people I know who I think are "normal" sized - especially when I'm the only fat one in group photos. Oh well not for long!

Oh yeah I almost forgot - Today I am wearing the dress that prompted this wonderful process - In Feb it was too tight and gave me the kick up the kiester I needed - today it is positively baggy ;-)

What are you guys thinking about today?

Wipeout!!!

Hi everyone!

I was all ready to post today about the amazing Wipeout that I was expecting at weigh in today.

In terms of eating and exercise last week I had a pretty slack one!  No tracking, only a couple of short walks, we ate out for lunch and dinner nearly every day and I had whatever I wanted - wine, cocktails, chips, pizza, chocolate, ice-cream! Also I felt a bit blue this week, a bit like life is passing me by - I am very much head down with exam revision right now. I also had an incident which resulted in me not being very proud of my behaviour!

But alas, I had a loss!

I'm at a loss!

700g gone to be precise ..... AND I wore jeans and a belt to weigh in, I thought it was going to be bad so wanted to be warm rather than light!

Anyway in preparation for bad news today, I sat down last night and worked out that I need to put some time aside today for refocusing on my weight loss goals, putting last week behind me and concentrating on menu planning, exercising, getting some motivational bits and pieces in my face and practicing the Think Slim techniques some more - which I am still going to do as I don't want the frustration of seeing this week's damage on next weeks scales!

My goal for my first five kilos gone was a lovely jewellery box which only came back into stock this week - so I picked it up this morning - piccie below:

I also promised a pic of my lovely man and I at last week's wedding - I so need a hair cut!

I'm looking forward to getting back into the swing of things! What are you focusing on this week?