I feel scared today! I don't know like something bad's going to happen and I'm hoping that by writing about a few things that scare me will get that feeling to go away.
What scares me:
1. Noises in the night - lovely boyfriend works nights so I am home alone with the cats a lot and as I'm dozing off to sleep every creak sounds like someone trying to get into the house.
2. Changing careers - I really want a career change, I've nearly finished my Communications Degree and want to get into Internal Communication and/or Community Engagement and am not sure how! (I forgot to mention that I work in recruitment now - so you'd think I'd know!)
3. Being Successful - because I don't know how to be. Especially at this weight loss thing - I've been fat for so long I have know idea how a slim person acts and thinks.
4. Losing myself - I used to be so outgoing, fun and interesting and now I think I'm boring. But when I think to back to when I thought I was fun and interesting that was when I was mainly drunk and abusing myself!
Whew - bit deep xx
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8 comments:
I cannot solve any of those fears for you, sweet Andrea, but I can tell you that I echo those fears myself at times.
The only way to overcome such fears, I reckon, is to decide to that you will win against them.
"There is nothing to fear but fear itself." Do not let it win.
Andrea, thanks for your comment on my blog. I guess we are on the same vibe! I had a moment's hesitation before posting because I felt my post was so negative, but it was honest so I hit publish. I'm dealing with the aftermath of DV and going through a divorce, so it's a whole new world for me.
I think by writing your fears out they are less potent and you can gain mastery over them. Good luck with your weight loss (and career change, etc). I'll keep you in my thoughts. xx
I wrote about fear today too! Weird, there must be something going around the blogosphere.
Your fears are all natural, but no less worrying because of that. The only thing you can do is find out as much as you can about the areas that you are afraid of and then... jump.
I wrote about fear today too! Weird, there must be something going around the blogosphere.
Your fears are all natural, but no less worrying because of that. The only thing you can do is find out as much as you can about the areas that you are afraid of and then... jump.
I agree with another poster, writing about your fears helps loosen their grip on you!
I can relate, my DH works nights too and its really hard for me at night. Sometimes i don't want to go to bed and have even considered getting a BIG dog for the inside.(have a bid dog outside and a little tiny chihuahua inside) I get up 3-4 times a night checking on the kids.
I hope you feel better today :)
It never ceases to amaze me how so many of us share the same fears ..... but only a few are ready to put a label to them and face them. Good on you girl! Thanks for bringing them to my surface through your words.
The other day Lucy posted a Lisa Stansfield song on her blog and a lyric stuck out at the time .... 'believing is the answer, the answer to all your fears". Seems to fit even better now!
I just had lunch with 4 of my best buddies and the big thing that came up with all of us was confidence and self-worth. Such a common theme ...
So, believing in ourselves .... maybe we should start with the little things and build on that!
Great post! I am also going through a period of great fear and just starting to label it.
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